The Cause of Death Jun22

The Cause of Death

It was 8.45 am on a Thursday morning and I slipped into the ER hoping no one would notice. I had left the previous night at 2.30 am ,just like I had every other day for the last 15 days of my ER posting but that never seemed to matter to anyone. I saw my colleague already attending to patients and breathed a sigh of relief. He smiled as I said Hi. We were good friends but for the last 2 weeks I had begun to loathe him. His efficiency , sharpness, intelligence , all traits I thought I possessed too but this posting had made me question . I wondered how he was coping so well while I crumbled physically , mentally ,emotionally …. I entered the doctor’s room to find my junior looking like a zombie and felt better instantly. There’s a strange sense of relief in collective misery. Hey didn’t you leave early yesterday , I saw you leave at 1.30 ? I said almost sounding condescending . He gave me a dirty look as I took a sip out of his coffee. I decided I needed a stiffer dose of caffeine to get through the day . Thursday’s were the worst , my eyelids were fighting to stay open , my legs felt like wood ,my REM sleep deprived brain couldn’t tell the difference between a J point elevation and STEMI and Sunday was a good 3 days away. ER posting was like combat training, it made you resilient ,taught you to function against all odds ,or so I had been told by my seniors . I was hoping someday in the future I could say the same to some junior who was burning out , but right now it...